Hey guys. Kinda here to make an important announcement.
Before you ask - I'm not leaving for good. Read on.
I'm leaving temporarily to get some things straight. I know I've said this before but I mean it for real. I'll be hiding under the covers and posting if I want to, so I'll still be checking here everyday. But the main reason why I'm leaving for a while is because of my reputation. I have understood from certain members that I have made a complete fool of myself the past few months, and I'm sorry. Nothing has taken me over but depression, anxiety and sexual emotions the past few months, but even when I first joined I was just a Minecraft-obsessed idiot who cared about the one server I played on (and I was, a few months ago, permanently banned from their forum for making a LEAVING POST. Go figure. On an additional note, my screen name actually comes from my Minecraft username, so there you go!) and to be honest, I feel like I have truly made a fool of myself. I want to get some distance to make sure people know I am not the true person WOWAY thinks I am. I understand I have become a WOWAY crap-poster and I do not want to cement myself as that in the WOWAY history books. Oh no I won't.
I understand my comments on things I was going through - depression, sexual feelings and self-intimacy - the time Mental Health Support existed, were simply outrageous - but I had nowhere to go. I have now been referred to the mental health services and they're getting counselling for me. I am happy about this but I need time. So many things are in my head I wish I could tell you guys but there is no longer a relevant thread for that, because people - especially me - where going too far, even although the thoughts were really in our heads. Also on the sexual feelings, I didn't understand how I was feeling for Al and I couldn't understand at all. It's still all way too confusing for me. All this crap and Aspergers don't mix at all and I have learnt that. But I'm going through some really rough depression and sexual emotions for people other than Al right now, and I need some time. I love you all, even those who hate and despise me and those who I hate, but my reputation is horrible and I don't want to be seen as a bad person.
I'm also gonna be less of a fan girl and begin being a bit more... Mature. Engage in more. Be more to this forum. Build meaningful relationships with those I don't get on with too well. Stop acting less 12. I'm gonna be 13 soon and I have a full life of opportunities ahead of me, some which could come from this forum, so I want to begin making myself seem more who I am. I love WOWAY as aforementioned and it breaks my heart to be even typing this up. But when you realise how it feels it all becomes way too real. I want you to put yourself in my shoes for a while and see what I've been through the part few years. Traumatised by teachers and pupils alike whom I called friends, made scared of the social world around me, not being taught about sex and the emotions behind it and having to learn yourself about things and explore yourself with low self-esteem. I want people to understand me a bit more. I'm not an attention seeker, it's just who I am.
One last thing, my truthful friends, before I leave for this long while: I am so, so, sorry for all the hell I may have brought to this forum the past year. I especially apologise to the people I have upset, minnick, YankoSwag etc. who, while have really annoyed me the last few months, I still respect and understand. But things are hard and I'm easily angry. I'm not good at being social and that's what I want people to understand. I was simply not born to be social in real life. I'd love to meet you all some day, but I don't understand social situations and if I seem mean or just walk away randomly and go into a world of my own, then I'm sorry. Unless I can be focused I just can't stand still. I just love you all and I mean it. I hope someday WOWAY will love in harmony and peace. But for now, let's just be friends so when I do choose to post regularly again for good WOWAY will be what it used to be. Almost three generations have used WOWAY, let's make the third generation of Those Who Love Al to love Al in any fashion they choose to while still being respected. We still have time to cement our forum and make it kinder, polite, brilliant, and more importantly, the untouched way it was in 2015.
Before I temporarily stop posting regularly, here are a few shoutouts to a few -
Jon "TMBJon" Katz - You have truly impacted me, and you are the person I have mostly privately communicated with on this forum. We have stayed wonderful friends the past year and your work on CBBTV and how you battled through depression, a thing men get stigma for, just amazes me. Never stop being the person who you are, and never give up. Embrace the true person you are, and remember that you have truly inspired the WOWAY community to go forth and be anything. You've worked with some big people, including our Alfred, and we've enjoyed your company. I'd like to thank you for your support during my tough times too, and I truly appreciate and respect your work for me the past few months. Please continue spreading your support through the forum, and don't forget you are the fan WOWAY has had for so many years. Keep up your fond love for this obscure community, and I'll talk to you whenever I get the chance.
Yankopunk - Your good vibes infect me with such joy. How you've been through so much abuse has shocked me but at the same time also amazes me, because you never gave up. I truly understand you and will always respect you. You may be a failure, but you aren't. Depression just calls you names. I've learnt from experience. I truly love you and so do many. Don't forget that. Remember you're a wonderful person. Just be kind to yourself and remember that depression is just forcing you through things and making it harder for you.
Alicia "yankochick38" Carney - Thanks for creating the place for Yankochicks to vent and fan girl and be free. The world is such a horrible place for some of us and I get that. You are one massive hug. Please continue being that hug. Every fan girl needed you, and you complied with replacing Drooling threads with something a bit more tailored to the modern fan girl. Now you just need to redo "The Fangirl" like you promised...
I always get so embarrassed over sexual things I write because I feel I just can't grow up.
Bart "WHiZZi" van Akker - THANK YOU SO MUCH for creating this forum!!! You have allowed us to meet and be so supportive to each other. You have not only created a place for people around the world with internet to talk about Weird Al and his works, you have made a forum that has allowed support and love to be given to those in need. Please DO keep on moderating this forum, and make sure you keep it running! As it may be a long time before I address you again, I wish you brilliant luck with Pyrates! One wonderful band full of talent. Keep making novelty music transform into music of any genre other than fun!
Sappho - Thanks so much for being there for me the past few months. We've had so much fun talking to each other and we've been able to relate to each other so much. Even during the serious moments we still got up and continued on with life. You are such a goddess to me, seriously. I still miss our wee talks on Twitter, and I hope we can resume them soon, and I hope life isn't too overwhelming and always know you are free to talk to me. Remember that we are truthfully everything. We will survive through the burden we live in, and we will stick together. We are always gonna be truthful friends no matter what.
Anyways, that's it. One last note: if you want to talk to me or send me a message of support or sympathy, feel free to PM me on here or DM me on twitter via the link to Twitter on my profile (or alternatively, my handle is @realHeds, the one I used in Trump's Twitter Stream during WOWAY Apprentice). I will welcome and respond to all messages as I will still visit WOWAY, but hidden and just not posting as much. I am planning to make a return as a brand new person which I hope will be met with good fanfare, and I hope to maybe change my WOWAY username too. Feel free to leave suggestions if you like.
Anyways, have a lovely day/night, and I will talk to you all if you PM/DM me or if I get the chance. Enjoy life, and I'll speak to you all soon.
//heds
